Witness

God
in
all
this
I
want
to
be
a
true
and
honest
witness
please
guide
me
in
this 
I
want
to
be
real
real
both
to
my
pain
and
Your
presence
yet
I
wonder
what
kind
of
witness
am
I? 
Should
I
smile
and
mask
the
pain
hide
my
sorrow
pretend
that
all
is
well
and
speak
the
gibberish
of
Christian
clichés? 

At
times
this
feels
like
what
others
want
what
others
long
for
from
me
but
I
still
believe
You
prize
honesty
and
are
most
clearly
seen
in
truth

but
I
confess
part
of
me
wants
to
play
the
good
trusting
always
believing
never
sad
Christian
for
there
is
much
praise
and
acclaim
for
such
a
person 

God
guide
me
and
direct
me
that
I
Might
be
a
true
witness
for
You